Yeah, about that....and some random deep thoughts

So, I apparently haven't done a great job keeping the blog updated, which makes me sad. Not because I expect people to be drooling over ready the juicy (not) tidbits of my life, but that I want to have it chronicled in some way for my family to remember later. I have never (since early high school) kept a journal consistently. I guess that might be because some of the things we go through in life are painful and aren't pleasent to dwell upon. I wish I would have done a better job in retrospect because I think maybe by reviewing expereinces that happened in the past, I might have made better choices later on. It is not fun living with regret...so I guess all I can do is try harder and be better now.

Our little family is settling in nicely here. We have made friends and have had dinners, playdates, dates and lots of afternoons at the pool. Jake starts teaching officially tomorrow at Penn State. I am so excited for him! Gillian still has two weeks left until school starts for her...she gets to ride the bus, which she is excited for. Lincoln is finally getting his two-year-old molars in so he is a bundle of joy ;) Actually, he is doing great. We'll see how he does when the baby comes. I have about two months left before our baby boy makes his appreance. I really thought that I would still feel pretty overwhemed with all the major changes in our lives but really I have come to grips with everything...or else maybe I am just really tired. Either way a nice sense of calm has entered in and I am grateful. I am so excited to meet this miracle we have created.

Our new ward has been a lot of fun. After being in our old one for so long it is refreshing to get to meet and get to know so many new people. Jake and I still don't have callings...six weeks and nothing yet. I am ready though to contribute some way and excited to see where we both end up serving. Last night Jake and I both got to go to our Stake's adult session of conference. I don't know the last time both of us got to do something like that together...maybe not since we have had kids! It was one of those meetings where I knew I was supposed to be there. I needed to hear what was being said...probably from every talk given. I remember when Jake and I talked in the very beginning about moving here and thinking to ourselves what we could teach these people out here in the East...I know pretty arrogant...but I realize now how much I don't know and how much I have to learn. I think that is why I love going to church and being a member of this church...I always come away with something to work on, to improve on. Even though I might not express it enough, I am thankful for the truthfullness of the gospel of Jesus Christ and how it centers me. It is a wonderful feeling to know that this church is led and guided by His hand and that I too can be given inspiration to guide and direct my choices in this life. There have been many times in my life that I haven't used this gift and tried to do it all on my own. Sometimes it has turned out okay, but for the most part I was so prideful I led myself to ruin instead of asking for help. How thankful I am now, to be where I am supposed to be.

I can now say I am thankful we moved here. I ( as well as my entire family) have things we need to learn and experience here. I know it will not be easy, it hasn't been easy but I do trust Heavenly Father who guided us here. I know he has a plan for us here, and however small and inconsequential it might be on everyone else's lives, I know it is important to Him.