It is finally here...the month of October where we will have our third child welcomed into our family. In many ways, this pregnancy has felt short and then again it has taken for-ev-er! Now as I count down the days...hours...mintues..SECONDS until the baby takes over my world, I feel vunerable and scared and utterly unprepared. I am scared to go into labor...I am scared of the pain, the problems that can arise with delivery, I am worried that the baby won't be "perfect"...mostly I am scared of the unknown.
I am so excited to meet this new little person fresh from up above...I am scared to meet this new little person from up above. Everything will change. Our family will never be the same again. I mourn for the family we were and at the same time embrace what we will be soon.
What will this new little teach me?
Will I become a better Mom? I hope.
Will this make our family stronger? I pray.
Little One, I will always remember what a miracle you were to me at a time in my life when I was struggling. I will always remember your ridiculous movements at the 10pm hour. I will always remember carrying through some of the hardest times of my life and how no matter how hard it was moving away from all our family and friends how you made it feel better for me. How much I love you already.
I can't wait to hold you in my arms.
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